I have fallen out of love and I am finally Ok with it. I finally realized I don't have to fit myself into a box I no longer and perhaps was never meant to fit into....
I fell in love with Crossfit almost 3 years ago....but for the last year or so I have been cheating on Crossfit with weightlifting mostly. Yeah, I tried to go back to her...but we just don't seem to work well together anymore. I still love her...see her value, appreciate what we share and how she changed my life...but....I think we drifted apart a while ago.
The good thing about this is that I have also finally let go of thinking that I need to look like this:
or that I have to learn a handstand pushup or a pistol or a muscle up.
I wanna move like this:
Well, that's not even really true...I wanna move the best I can in this event....
So, yeah...I still workout in a Crossfit gym and I am sure that Crossfit and I will flirt and perhaps even fall into a familiar intimacy again....but it is time for me to let her go...and say I am not a "Crossfitter" any more.
I don't have a label for what I am or what I do...and I kinda like it that way because it means I don't have anyone's expectations of what I should look like or what I should be able to do hanging over me...
It's me...chubby~slow~but strong.
So thanks Crossfit....It isn't you...it's me, and well, I hope we can still be friends.