Last week I actually did 2 crossfit workouts. See, BJ and I had a conversation about the training that is coming down the pike for me and the affect this health crap has had on my ability to train this year...He said something I really didn't wanna hear...I gotta add the conditioning aspect back in~in a big way. Frankly, I am still nervous about the heart stuff when I am in the gym and somedays are worse than others. I decided since I had 3 weeks til Pleasanton that I would do a couple of the CrossFit workouts. Turns out I did the couple that were lifting focused...so sue me...I also didn't work out much because of the damage I did to the knee in Denver.
So the work outs? a bear complex thing....which I struggled with because of the aching post competition shoulder, and something called a "Squat Party" which looked easier on the white board than it was....and was a shit load of reps in the end. Yeah...HELLO knee....
This week, I am back to the pregames programming...which means Back Squat Monday:
3x5 95, 135, 185
I decided I felt ok and my knee felt ok, but I was afraid to push it so I started the next set light.
3X3 205 Oh...yeah not bad.
235 Oh well... that's heavy...maybe I should do two sets at this weight....
270 Yeah...why? I looked at my training log and it has been a loooooong time since I lifted this heavy on a set of three...all that can happen is I dump the bar, right? or blow my knee?
Down up down up down up....they were kinda ugly....pushed up with my back a little....didn't trust my legs to come up with enough power. But I did them. I stood there for a bit...wondering if my chest was gonna stop, or if I'd have to ask one of the EMT's in the gym to save my ass...but, well...it came down. I also remembered that lifting just feels like that...duh....
I also did a boatload of drills...hammer, stone, and WFD footwork.
Less than two weeks and I have a HUGE game in Pleasanton. I did these games last year. They are a 2 day games and they are tough...tough...tough and fun and beautiful and exciting.
Throwing has been odd and challenging and disappointing this year.....so I decided to find my numbers from the games last year....see if I can focus on simply beating some of these numbers and letting go of all of those lofty goals I had last year, before I got sick, before the separation, before fear tried to take hold.
So here they are from last year...this way I am accountable to you and myself to post my numbers in two weeks or so.
Braemer 23'2" (they have HUGE stones)
WOB 15' (of course)
These are sorta a high pressure games...so I'd like to see if I can learn to use the crowd to push my throws instead of shying away from the crowd, the attention. Also....to let go of this self punishing attitude I seem to have about my throwing this summer.
You know just a few short months ago in May...my goal was to be able to simply FINISH a game with out ending up in the hospital. I have thrown well. Not great, but well....I have learned how to manage the heart stuff on the field and I know my technique in some events has also seen improvement.
Would I speak to any other thrower the way I talk to myself?
So....yeah....I've done ok this year, especially given some of the challenges placed before me. I have worked on letting go of fear on the field....and that.....is.....yeah....the good stuff.