Friday, May 27, 2016


Well....I didn't write shit down...I was having too much fun.

I was happy with caber, sheaf~ I matched my pr of 24'....went for 19'9" on WOB, but missed...

The things that suffered were exactly what I had thought...

Stones, weight, hammers.....don't practice?  Well there it is. I am hard on myself...but I am working on that too....

But it was a blast..long, cause there were 13 of us.

Meet with BJ too....some plans, but I don't have them solid in my brain yet.

And I started tracking food again....just tracking.


Stress and food are glorious.

OHHHHH  I started meditating too...doctors orders.  Ness turned me on to an app....I have 7 whole days behind me now.

Got too many things to write about and I am not writing often enough, so this is jumpy!

I am headed to Denver to do my class in a week...I suck at this stuff.  SO hard to get formulas and regulations in my brain.  All I can do is try.

Between my lack of training, my inability to learn what I need for the series 7,  my weight, and some other shit I don't write about on here...I am feeling like a giant ball of failure....mostly...but I also know I am confronting old demons, standing up for myself, and working on stuff that is WAAAAY outside my comfort maybe it isn't failure....maybe I'm stretching and growing and finding boundaries...

OHHHHH a shout out to two bad ass women in my life.

Sheila Helme...for getting out there and throwing in her first game and Ness....for grabbing her career by the horns and making it yours.

You are both super inspiring!  Thanks

Friday, May 20, 2016

Pre Game notes


I got nothing.

Gonna enjoy some time in the sun.  Love my Masters group.  I shall probably watch a couple of these ladies set both personal and world records.

That is awesome.

I have promised myself I will be happy with where ever I am throwing....It has not been my focus at's ok.

I have finally learned that the people who support me won't string me up just because I don't keep throwing better and higher and farther.

That time is behind me, that life is behind me.

I'll post some numbers next week.

To all the folks in Victoria this weekend....kill it!

To the SGL folks competing here in Albuquerque....kill it!

To all my Praxis peeps....kill it!

To all those strong folks at Westside....kill it!

Have a fun weekend...and come join me if you can out at balloon fiesta park.

Celtic Fest

I woke up this morning, without fear.

I am so grateful.

Monday, May 2, 2016

2 numbers

ok...short term goal.


No I lie.


I am sorta stoked.

BJ's programing was spot on.

Before all my heart stuff and the surgery, I had a back squat one rep of 350.  It was an ugly 350, but whatever.

Post surgery..December of 2015...recovery programing and  moving into a power lifting meet...I got 315.

SO...I was looking for 330 today...Gary had said 3-5%....

I hit 335 and it was clean and felt good...

put on felt ok.

put on 375...I bent forward a little but but corrected and got it up.  When to Gary and he, at first, told me to go heavier...until we figured out I put 50 onto my squat since December.


I'm a little geeked out.

400 might actually happen.

The only caveat?  I didn't video it.  I hate that.  I mean, I hate ME on I didn't tape it and now?  I regret it.  I have to get past that shit.

Thank god there were eyes on I know for sure it was a good lift.




Thanks BJ...I mean really....not just for the programing, but for fucking putting up with me and for believing in me and my heart when I often don't and for tricking me back into Praxis on my lunch hour.  You knew as well as I did (if not more) that I was about to give up.

And thanks Gary...for keeping a sly eye on my the last 10 weeks...sneaky.

Yeah! Back squats!

Now....I guess I need to start working on throwing??