meaning of nothing....

"The will to succeed is important, but what's more important is the will to prepare." Bobby Knight



Ok...here I go.  

It has been well over a month since I have written.  

Why?

Well....I get this thing that happens once in a while, I deal with depression...like lots of folks.  

For me, it is like pressure on two fronts....I feel like there is an actual energy drain happening at my feet....and often there is intense pressure on my head. My dear friend Jim used to tell me that he could tell I was dealing with depression because my upper lip would stop moving!  It might be frozen right about now. Yeah, I know how that sounds....This particular span has had me wrecked with guilt....I have no reason to feel this way...I am being a pain in the ass git.....  I could list all of the wonderful things in my life to show you why I don't "deserve" to feel depressed, but you know; it showed up anyway.

So I haven't written, because anything coming out of me right now would sound whiny and ungrateful...like this:


Not eating well, not sleeping well, can't get focused on working out, I really don't train anymore, what is throwing, worried about my kiddo right now, can't seem to even get a reading, miss my son, freaking about money issues, job issues......


Blah blah; whine whine. 


I feel so terrible for feeling terrible.  


Oh well, the good thing about hitting one of these spans of time, I am old enough to know that this too shall pass.....

Here is a cat.