MRI update and Costco adventures

Well, I have no real update, except that I have indeed had my MRI.  Went to the upright place in Albuquerque. Shockingly, they are not in network for my silly insurance....but whatever....why having claustrophobia means I need to pay a higher price for health care....oh god, let’s not open that can of worms.

I can’t get back into have a doctor look at the dang thing til late next week, so....let’s even see if that happens.

As for all of this other stuff...um.  Yikes.

Not sure about y’all, but this is seriously tapping into my stress levels.  I know.....it is for everyone.  Last weekend I ended up at the store every day...no. I am not hoarding anything.  In fact, if it wasn’t for a joke between my boss and I, we would be out of TP.  All of us talked about it and we are just trying to shop normally.  Which means we will and have not been able to get certain things.  Maybe it’s a mistake....who knows.  But I won’t be that person who snatches eggs away from another. Being typical Americans, we have too much food in the house already.  I mean we could probably go a pretty long time if we needed to. The food combinations might be weird at that point and not go together but there it is.

It feels odd to be some where with a small cart when everyone else seems to be pushing a barge, but that adds to the crap, doesn’t it? Adds to the stress....looking at these other people and thinking, maybe I should get extra...blah blah blah.  But I fight it and move on.

Any who.....I see the same things you all see.  The panic, the fear, the funny memes, the conspiracy theories....oh god, please stop with the conspiracies.

Maybe it’s my inherent Polly Anna attitude, maybe it is my belief that people are basically good.  I see that too....the good stuff people are doing so I shall focus on that.  I know that this attitude has sometimes meant that I get taken advantage of, that I get used...oh well...it still is my overriding way of being.

Which brings me to Costco.

Yes Costco....last night.....

We went.  See we needed eggs,(they were out), butter, berries, and we grabbed a few things for other folks who couldn’t find what they needed.

Ok so Costco....is it like mad max or what?  No.  Well. Maybe it is in the morning when they have to ration TP, but we went near closing....  I grabbed a cart in the lot and used some sanitizer to clean the thing...as I walked in there was a guy with paper towels and some sanitizer spray and he asked if I’d like my cart cleaned....aw,  thanks!

Then, as we come to they door they have a white board with all the things they were out of listed....although they were out of onions and it was not listed...onions?  Yea...ok.  Then as you walk in they have a huge sign that says “ social distance.”  As we wind our way through empty shelves and oddly placed items I notice something.

People.

People taking great care.  Great care of one another.

How?

In isles, people making eye contact and giving permission to pass as they held back.  People waiting to approach an item if someone was standing near it. This fearful panic, this mindless grabbing, had given way to a careful approach.

We asked the folks checking us out if they were ok, they asked the same.  They too, even though they worked at Costco, had chosen not to hoard....they felt the panic around them every single day and still made that choice.

I left that place feeling a little less stressed then when I had walked in.

Yes I just wrote that...going to Costco made me feel less stressed.  I realize that perhaps, like everyone else, I may be simply seeing what I want to see, but I don’t think so....

I just believe people want to get through this....whatever THIS turns out to be, and isn’t better to get though this with a little gentle humanity in tact?