Shifting Shifting

 Wow, I have been super duper consistent writing this year.

2 whole blogs written this year.  It's been a weird year so far.

Oh well, I think it has been for everyone.  

As for throwin', I started strong this year.  Decent form, a PR on sheaf....I have sorta fizzled now.  My workouts have fallen off a bit....my focus has been else where....got an offer to work on a new theater piece, started a group therapy thing, was helping Grant with Games AD stuff, Emery moved out on his own (with roommates! Whoot), and some weird shit with people super dumping shit on me that wasn't all mine. Oh and work has been....hair on fire kinda shit.

This is gonna be a huge transition year for me, I kinda new that going in...and it is showing up everywhere.

Lots of focus on trying to heal some shit around food....which, yea, I know I have talked about in here for a while, but I am....Struggling....still....and I don't feel like I have any coherent thoughts to even write down.

Any way...what the hell is my point? I dunno.  I like keeping up my blog and perhaps I need to focus it again on my gym and throwing goals.

So...I threw in Cheyenne this weekend.  And well, as I texted a few friends this weekend...you get out of things what you put into them...sometimes... Sometimes we can train very hard and it doesn't really show (yet) and sometimes we can take a big break and it turns out that is just what we need to lift or throw well.

Ok...so how'd ya throw Mona...eh...not so great.  But I tried to stay focused on form.  BUT....then I hurt my back...on sheaf....pulling too hard....cause I wanted "something" instead of what?  what was that? FOCUSING ON FORM.

Finally had a decent Light Weight...and yes...for my new age group...it was a tiny bit past the record.  Which, is freaking cool...and let's remember...records get broken...they are supposed to...that's why it's cool.  In fact that sheaf record I set in Vegas is back in the hands of the best women's 50+ master out there.  Congrats Teresa!  I saw the video...it was sweet.

One of the best parts of the weekend was watching my friends Linda and Edie come back to the games.  Edie has a new hip and man oh man...is she BACK! It was great to watch.

What is my point?  

I focused my early part of the year on the wrong things...I need to go back to MY goals, as I said....records are indeed....awesome to set, but personal records and goals...that is where I need to be....which I should and will (??) start posting here more.  

The other, and really most important thing was some thing I wrote about the phoenix game and the crowd engagement.  That is the real shit there...

And this weekend....oh man....we had the most awesome families watching us.  I kept bringing weights out into the crowd for people to hold (don't tell Ryan!) and going over caber rules and all sorts of fun stuff.  Then there was a little boy who was asking questions...was interested in holding a hammer...he then asked me my name.  He then started calling me Miss Mona.  Oh my...he was like 6 years old and was wearing a Bat Man shirt...I asked him his name, and then said, "wait, don't tell me..it's Bruce Wayne, right?"  His eyes got huge...he started talking about batman and all the work he does.  Then he looked down...and started to giggle.

It made my damn day.  The shit throws, the shooting pain in my back...none of it mattered in that moment.  

And then...they followed me around and were my cheering section.  Pain or not, I would turn and wave with a big stupid smile on my face...cause those little kids were all that mattered in that moment...I don't wanna get sucked into thinking that doesn't really serve me...or even serve the games really.

That is the shit right there...that's it.  

Personal goals and making memories.